the simple life

u said things r too complicaed in life, that u hav found the joy n purpose in life, n things r never that complicate. wel... 1st u freaked me out abit, n after the fact that u said u wer emy guru, that just made me speechless.

anyway, ur not the guy for me, cos u dont feel the way i feel about u. i have finall accepted that fact tonight n i feel alot freeier that i've been for awhile. i dont feel burdened down by a friendship that i wasnt sure about. u r simple n u mae me see that, but somehow im still not buying that ur a guru n spreading the knowledge to others part. but everyone has their own opinions i guess.

i loved u! i dont regret it but i do wished that it felt more more to me. that there was more to it then just lust but i honsetly dont think so. so sad to say, i've learnt things the hard way. to never fall so hard for anyone. to never rush n think once be4 over thinking n complicating urself.

ur one of the most unforgetable ppl n i've met in my life n u hav played an important role, but sad to say i dont see ur role in my life much more cos im sensing ur going a diff direction n our paths part not long after.

u've been a good friend walking me this part life, but i need to go now n take other risks n tries.

once upon a time u were my shining knight, a fairy tale i could never have. but all fairy tales r never real n they always come crashing down to a unhappy ever after. i loved u, bu now i dont... i've let go n u have a long time ago. i dont really know u anymore n i dont think i ever will now. u were once my friend but u found ur own way that is very different from mine, so farewell to my dear... my once upon a time...

HOME SICK

i tot i could count on u, guess i was wrong. its the simple things that count, gues ur right, i dont know u at all. i should stop acting like i do cos i thought i did. i'll rather be a nerd at home than to hang out with u till late, cos i just realised what i meant to u. im upset, can u blame me? u could hav FREAKIN replied 1 of my texts. just so i know, but u had me waiting till after dinner time. i dont even wanna talk now.

i miss home, i miss knowing ppl n driving to places to get my own food. i miss walking to the shops when i cpulsnt drive. i miss my darlings who would be there for me n the times we hanged out. i miss my sisters no matter how much they annoyed me, i miss my cell memebers n youth group. i miss being in FAMILIAR TERRITORY! i miss my exbf hu always took care of me, i miss the guy i had a soft spot for n still do.. i wish i had a wish right now, i could use the days where it was simpler than this, the days where i never had to worry about if im having lunch alone, the days where i made friends easily, the times where i din hide in my shell cos i knew what there was to know.


can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars,
i really could use a wish right now..