coming close to losing you was the only wake up call I need, the saying you never know what you've got till its gone has never been so true when I almost watch you slip away from my inconsiderate actions. with a clean slate I no longer want or will associate myself with the past not because I'm ashamed of my past but it will no longer define me. I set out my future with you as a whole new person that I could never even thought of being prior to being with you, so thank you for all the time, effort, love, commitment and energy that you have invested in me.. in us. I can only do the same as there is no way of repayment or 'make-up' for the forgiveness that you have graciously given me.
lessons that you have taught me in just the last 2 months goes beyond my wildest expectations. I look at myself in the mirror and there are subtle changes that reflect back. Gone is the girl with an inch of make-up that she hides behind.. her source of confidence. I'll admit I barely leave the house without make-up but being comfortable in the way I look is definitely an improvement from a few weeks ago. My unhealthy addiction to social network is another stepping stone to greater things as I see now how it caused me so much unnecessary hurt that I was blinded to or at times refused to see. 711 or 1, I'll gladly trade all 711 for that 1 person who may seem lonely in figure but more that sufficient in company. I am truly sorry for the hurt and sadness as a result of my lack of emotional consideration and reckless actions. You say this discussion will never happen again, and that there is no next time because you will lose me if it does, I know this discussion will never happen again because I know I will not make the same mistakes I did or put myself in positions that do not have your best interest or your emotions first. I start afresh..
