the harder i try, the tighter u grip.

im tired of the emotional stress u put me thru, its unintential i noe but ur making it so freakin hard to let me go. cant u see im alrdy gone?

dont try to save the broken pieces cos what we had is a memory, a faded perfect picture. it shows happy faces that once was but no longer is. i've changed n moved on... i no longer feel the need to hang on to precious broken pieces of what used to be our love.

i dont mean to leave u behind but i warned u before that this was gonna happen, i dont want to tear u to pieces but i need to break free from ur sufforcating grip on my life. it was my part to play your other half but is no more. just say goodbye... or good night if good bye is too hard, n when u wake up inthe morning, this would have been a beautiful dream..

tell me what i want to hear.

he's a friend who i like to hang out with! i just got to noe him. he tells me his problems, n he hides away his feelings, i noe that cos he told me bout the girl that he loves. im happy for him. she's a nice girl, n they've been thru quite abit together.

so here's to him, all the best , dont forget i want details!!

ethics n business go together?

DON'T THINK SO esp in our modern day where everything is about making a profit. but i do agree that profit should be the outcome of a business n not the purpose of a business.

anyway.... i really should get back to writing that summary n evaluation assignment for BAS but at the moment i outta critical thinking mode. (random thought:im gonna LOVE/HATE my weds!) since my BAS lecture returns in week 10 or so? not to sure but my class on wed is gonna be from 3-4 pm. what a waste of time cos it takes 40min -an hour to get to uni n back. gahhh... but oh well... its not like i can skip that class till week 10. *hmm....nahh..* how ethical is dat..

on the other side of the polar, my thoughts are just running from saturday plans to me getting my new phone! its still a surprise! *whee..* i just hope its a good surprise, n pls dont let it be PINK * i should be thankful for getting a new phone altogether i noe, cos my current one is being taped together... literally.

but yea, new phone n im still dire need of making new REAL friends! like seriously, i never thought i'll hav this problem till now (no, im not a bitch who thinks im cool n the world worships the ground i walk on, im just used to being transfered alot to new schools that i thought i knew what it takes to start over again.) but apparently NO! not when im in a foreign land with ppl of different mindset, not to mention, i barely get their jokes... this isnt getting any easier.

*yawn* okay, i seriously need to get back to where ethics n stuff so im out!

lots of hugs,
grace...

blurry thoughts with a pinch of anger

went out with him today, im not afraid to say it here, that we swapped saliva n he left me feeling with the exact same feeling the last time, the emptiness n awkward feeling that we were ntg but friends again. i dont know how it happened.

one min, we were just checking out submarines n the battleships n the next we were making out in a cubicle. n after that we just walked back n it felt like we were strangers all over, how can something so good be so strange in a split second. i wish it was simpler, that life was simple, where there was no in betweens.

my aunt was also rather pissed at me earlier, going on bout how inconsiderate i am for not calling when i was on skype with my mum!! n how i never called back when i didnt even get her call in the 1st place. she's making it a big deal like how she always does. gosh, i cant stand her sometimes.

things that just go thru my mind now r blurry.... a mix of school work, boys and home. i wonder why do we girls make stuff more complicated then it should be. 1+2doesnt make it 3 for us, its makes it 2+1 or 3+0 or 4-1, basically its just twisted.

im glad i can just breathe here without the fear of some kind of authority figure reading my blog n calling me the next day telling me to explain this n that..


lots og hugs,
grace